Go!

As I sit here tonight and reflect on all that was this year I feel...calm.  I remember at this time last year feeling so tired.  Make no mistake, with two little ones I still feel tired on a regular basis.  This tired I speak of was deeper, stale.  Slowly, as the months went on and winter passed and spring and summer, I began to feel something new.  I stopped trying so hard, stopped thinking so much, and started letting things just be.

Without so much weight on my back, this new year I am looking forward to chasing what moves me most.  I'm looking forward to tending my friendships, and making a bit more time for myself a priority.  I'm looking forward to holding my little ones hands a bit less, and in other ways I will hold their hands more.  I've dusted and cleared cobwebs.  I've thrown out and reorganized.  I have made more room.  This stretching of my heart, this ache I feel when I think about how much I love my family and how much they love me back.  It is so good.

Yesterday, I filled out my 2012 day planner.  In the very front I wrote down these words from the Tao-te-Ching; a daily reminder.

Yield and overcome
Bend and be straight
Empty and be full
Wear out and be new
Have little and gain

Happy New Year!  Go!

xo